A Little Bit About Me.

This is My Story.

My journey began at a young age, around six or seven, when I experienced relentless bullying from both peers and adults. The taunts often targeted my appearance, my eye condition, my performance in sports, and even my academic abilities.

My childhood was marked by turmoil, including my parents' challenging divorce and the abusive relationship my father had with his new partner, which left me with lasting emotional and physical scars. During these difficult times, my father was often absent when I needed him most, and I was barred from seeing my mother for several years without clear reasons. I felt isolated and alone.

Growing up, I was expected to conform to strict standards: acting a certain way, dressing a certain way, and even caring for my younger brother from the age of twelve. This forced maturity instilled a perfectionist streak in me, teaching me that I could only gain attention and love by meeting these high expectations. This drive for perfectionism followed me into my career as a clinical radiographer, where I encountered further bullying and burnout from neglecting my own needs.

As I navigated my formative years, I faced challenges such as anxiety and depression. Conventional medicine and therapy fell short in providing the deep healing I craved. Intuitively, I knew that there was more to my healing than mainstream methods could offer.

Crystals had always been a part of my life, quietly sparkling in the background. However, I soon discovered they held more than just beauty; they could facilitate healing, release negative emotions, and alleviate mental pain. Crystals became a catalyst for my spiritual awakening, guiding me to explore practices like Reiki, meditation, and mindfulness—each a step on my path to inner knowledge and self-discovery. During this process, I realised that I had blocked out my higher self and intuition as a young person, leading to confusion and grief.

As a teenager, the bullying escalated, culminating in a move over 200 miles away during a crucial exam period. My new classmates quickly noticed my different accent, appearance, and interests. While they gravitated toward typical teenage activities, I found joy in collecting crystals and exploring tarot and paganism, making me an easy target for ridicule. I endured physical intimidation and harassment, which plunged me further into depression and anxiety. Despite my school’s indifference and my desire to quit, I persevered and completed my exams.

In my quest for connection, I fell in with the wrong crowd, seeking those who seemed to understand me. This led to feelings of abandonment and trust issues, compounded by my upbringing in a broken family. Trigger warning: I struggled with self-harm during my teenage years and sought treatment in hospital. While psychotherapy and counselling offered some support, the underlying pain remained.

As I transitioned into adulthood, I continued to grapple with anxiety, confidence issues, and stress. Medication prescribed for my symptoms often exacerbated the problem, and there were days when I was so incapacitated that I couldn’t even get out of bed, sleeping for days on end.

Awakening to the power of crystals, I uncovered transformative truths: the reality I choose is the one I create, I have the ability to manifest my dreams, and there is an abundance of love and happiness available to me. Despite facing trauma, abuse, and feelings of unworthiness, I pursued a successful career in Diagnostic Radiography. However, I faced years of psychological abuse, criticism, and a pervasive sense of disconnection and fear in my professional life. The stress, depression, and physical illness that accompanied my career left me feeling misaligned and disconnected from my true self.

It was during this time of burnout that I rediscovered myself and my true calling. Forced to stop working, I began journaling, developing my intuition, and immersing myself in spiritual books and healing modalities. This undeniable intuitive nudge marked a turning point in my life. A reconnection with a past Atlantean life ignited a new spiritual awakening, evolving Crystal Stream into the realm of Spiritual Alchemy, symbolising a profound understanding of spiritual wisdom and the realisation of one’s true potential.

Through my exploration of how our outer selves reflect our inner selves, I recognised that the products we choose can significantly impact our well-being. This realisation led me to embrace organic, ethical, and sustainable products—choices that align with my values of unity, harmony, and authenticity. I trained in Indian head massage and beauty facials, understanding the importance of nurturing both inner and outer selves. Becoming a Neal’s Yard Independent Consultant felt like a natural extension of my journey, allowing me to advocate for holistic balance through organic and ethical products.

While I initially thought I couldn’t give up my professional career just yet, I took on a new role as a lecturer and PhD student. This new chapter brought its own challenges, reigniting issues of perfectionism, anxiety attacks, auric migraines, heart palpitations, and stress. As my long-term relationship began to unravel, I felt confused and overwhelmed, grappling with the fallout from that period.

Yet, there is light at the end of the tunnel. Through healing and coaching, I have transformed my fear, perfectionism, anxiety, and burnout into purpose. I’ve learned valuable mindset techniques and neuroscience principles that have helped me understand and address my emotional struggles. Now, I stand as an alchemist, guiding others on their healing journey.